i wish it were so easy to just move from one thing to the next i sed thing coz atleast that should be easy but when you have so many decisions frought with so much...with so much dependant on it....its so hard....

am i supposed to tell my self keep the faith...believe in destiny, in god....i guess when mankind has no direction can not fully weigh out those decisons then you gotta say god help me....right...

when i need people just no one is there for me.....i guess its the way of things.....if i could explain the choking lump in my throat, the anger, the frustration over things that happen the way everything just turns around and fucks you up. god im getting base. oh chuck it....